Life is Hard...

I've been struggling a lot with the question of working or not working.  As much as I love being a mom, I feel like I need time away from them.  I'm thinking about going to school.  I think I'd like it, but the hubby and I already have decided that if I do that, then I'm going to have to go to work after I'm done.  In a way, I would really like to work, and in another, I don't.  I feel like the kids need me (although I think they'd benefit with the interactions from other kids in a daycare setting.)  I want to be a good mom, but I don't know what's right to do.  I would love to have some interaction with people (other than babies and the hubby) and work would be a great place to do that.  Plus, with Joe almost dying in a car accident in 2008, it's always been in the back of my mind that I need to have a career in place for just in case anything should ever happen to him (especially with wanting to add on to our family more)  Am I a bad mom for wanting some time away from them?  Will they hate me if I choose to work?  I just don't know........I'm so confused.  The more I pray, the more confused I start to feel.

Husband is back to work

My husband is amazing...He finally got work, and started today (ok, so it was orientation, but dude, a paycheck is coming!) He officially actually starts "working" tomorrow.  My oldest son didn't take it too well, as he's gotten used to daddy being here with us during every moment for the last 5 months.  He got sad, and started crying for him...so I held him for around half an hour, until he fell asleep.  He woke up crying about 30 minutes after that, and from there, we just waited out for daddy...it seemed like forever, but thankfully, didn't actually take too long.  Anyways though, hubby came home and surprised me with a wii game I've been wanting forever...
Yeah, it's pretty awesome.  It makes me feel like a COMPLETE idiot while doing it, but I have fun.  It's not really a game for scoring, or actually learning how to dance (unless you're really paying attention to the moves) but I had a good time trying to follow along, and being able to laugh at myself in the process.
Well, I guess that's about all. Tomorrow is another day, which I'm sure will be challenging since hubby is working again, but I just might be able to get lil man to cheer up and dance with mommy as she completely makes a fool of herself. ;-)

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Starting out new

So...I usually regularly only blog on my sparkpeople site (username-joybigloser) 
I figured it was time to step out and start actually blogging on a real blogging site.  I've created a blog for specifically my weight loss, and then I created this, for my everyday life, and for my artistic side.  So, I'll probably do another update later...but this is to let everyone know I exist, I'm alive, and I have a life.